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cecilia forbes Photo by Cecilia Forbes

Last night, Tegan and Sara (T&S), the Indie pop-rock band fronted by the talented twins, invaded Manila and took the city by storm with their infectious songs and their famous banters.

I was planning to go. I already bought the tickets, reserved some merch from T&S PH, made arrangements with a friend who lived close to the venue, and switched shifts just to clear November 25.

Unfortunately, certain circumstances held me back and a week before the event, I had to cancel and accept the fact that I wasn’t going to see the twins perform live. 😦

I would miss seeing them. And I wouldn’t be seeing Up Dharma Down as the opening act too.  I guess Chris Martin was right when he sang about how things don’t always turn out as you plan.

So I decided to spend the evening with a friend, trying hard not to think about the concert in BGC, but I still ended up telling my friend I was grieving that night and I couldn’t help thinking about it. I scoured the websites and interacted with fellow fans once I got home that evening. You can check pictures and videos of the concert night here:

I was constantly checking in with T&S posts on instagram or twitter as well as with the T&S PH fb group. I felt their sorrow as they coped with the twins’ departure and post-concert depression (PCD), an acute state of sadness and extra sensitivity that fans go through after every concert, but I carried an additional weight as I browsed through the pictures, videos and read through their anecdotes, feeling bad for the things I missed.

The opportunity may have passed me by but it didn’t leave me empty handed, however. I discovered that T&S enjoyed their stay mostly because of the fans’ enthusiasm and creativity, and I got to meet–even if it was just through virtual discussions–the same amazing people in the T&S PH . We went crazy together for our favorite twins, and although we each held different levels of fangirling, I hope in the future, when T&S returns, I would meet them someday.

Allow me to share some of the awesomeness of the good people of T&S PH:

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T&S cookies carefully made with much love and determination by Kasey Albano and Karen Ramos. So detailed even the tattoos matched the real life heartthrobs!

T&S cookies by kasey and karen of T&S PH

T&S were so impressed, they put it up on twitter!

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Teks Pabuayon (the brains behind the design of the t-shirt which Tegan wore during the concert) with Sara while Tegan takes their picture using her phone. Photo by Grace Candano

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The legendary shirt designed by Teks and worn by the beautiful Tegan. Photo by Maita Elica

the Quins with miwa of T&S PH

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An avid Miwa Gabutero posing with the twins and her signed T&S CDs

Self made cookies, a t-shirt designed by a fan (which Tegan wore onstage), unique fan arts and out of this world poses with the Quins–talk about creativity and unrivaled devotion!

Before I finally gave in to sleep, I watched some of the uploaded videos (here’s T&S: We Were like the Backstreet Boys for one minuteWalking with a Ghost, Sara Introduces the band prior to encore and the Encore, all from Wendy Woo, as well as Where Does the Good Go and Back In Your Head, both from Niki Francisco) from the concert. People were singing everything like thunder but with so much ardor, as if they were singing the stories of their lives! No wonder Tegan and Sara put the Philippines on their top 5 shows and wanted to move to Manila. :p

It made me realize how wonderful it is to be part of the T&S PH community. A fan used to be a name I associated with a bunch of screaming crowds and a throng of people going gaga over the artists they loved and looked up to, but after what I saw, heard and read, I have to say, my respect for the people making up the T&S PH fanbase mutiplied and I don’t think there will ever be better fans than them. Fangirling wasn’t some common activity anyone could take part in anytime and anywhere when the inspiration struck too, no sir, because they set the bar higher, I tell you. If there’s anything I learned from the group, it is that being creative, polite and generous to Tegan & Sara, as well as to the fellow fans and organizers, is the best and only way to show your love and appreciation for musical icons as huge as the Quins. When you show people how good you’ve grown because of your idols, people begin to take notice of them and in the process, you’ve partially recruited them through curiosity. That can make ripples in increasing the band’s popularity.

I’m also grateful for them because in the midst of the many calamities and political issues our country faces day to day, T&S PH was able to show how heartwarming and sincere Filipinos can be once they’re passionate about something or in this case, when they’re genuinely rooting for a versatile band such as T&S.

It’s no surprise that I’ll be forever grateful for Tegan and Sara because for me, they are proof that talent and good manners, once nurtured and practiced well, will take you far; so far you don’t even have to try for anyone to respect and adore you.

So thank you T&S PH. Although I wasn’t there to witness the mall tour or the concert, you’ve given me more than my fair share just by sharing yourselves.

And of course, thank you so much for coming to the Philippines Tegan and Sara, and for caring enough to raise funds for the victims of Yolanda. We greatly value the gesture.

I hope and pray that you come back someday. Until then, I’ll be waiting. 🙂

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The twins after they shared their personal playlist online. ❤

I think it’s going to take a while before I get over this one.

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“If we are to be free, we must make each person we meet our ultimate object of reverence.”

-Burmese Buddhist proverb

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The photo was taken one early morning while I was waiting for my breakfast to be served. The monks were going through their usual morning rounds, collecting alms from willing believers and this man was one of the workers in the place I was having breakfast. I observed and witnessed how he stopped in his tracks to offer rice to this monk, and then he knelt down, head bowed as the monk began to pray.

The Burmese quote on the other hand was something I read in a book I borrowed from the DPNS students.

I remember there was a time when I wanted to make interviews with Buddhists, Muslims and Christians here in Mae Sot in light of what happened to the monk and the massacred Muslims in Myanmar. In the interviews, I would ask them two questions:

1) Is religion worth the bloodshed?
2) Is religion making us better people?

But then I didn’t push through because I would have to learn Burmese or find someone willing to translate and that would mean that I wouldn’t be working alone. And then there would be the challenge of finding people to interview. And I guess I already half-heartedly conceded that my interests in film and advocacy would just remain as food for my imagination, and never really something I would actually act upon on and share with the world.

Oh well. So much for ambition and creativity.